August Reflections (*NOT* a Beauty Post)

As we enter August I tend to reflect back on my summer so far. This year it's been less than exciting but boy oh boy has it ever been eventful. 2019 has really sent me for a rip. It's been one hell of a ride since January 1st.

Anyway, I mention reflecting back on my summer this time of year because it feels like it's coming to a close and the year is starting over (despite the new year actually being in January, fall always feels like a reset) and I feel like this year, this summer, more so than other summers, has been rather lack lustre. I had all these plans that... still haven't happened yet. Somehow, (read: obviously) I got sucked into a work vortex and have been doing nothing but that, nonstop. Which leads me to my next emotional "omg the year is ending and I've done nothing with it" thought: everyone is getting ready to head back to school and I'm stuck feeling... well, stuck. I've really been thinking a lot about going back to school to pursue more passions of mine but I need to work in order to save money to do so. I am just feeling like I am working jobs that don't bring me joy (or enough money). I want something I can get up everyday and feel good about, something to look forward to... I need a (and I can't believe I'm saying this) a CAREER! I really thought I could "work experience" my way to the top but too many companies care about whether or not you possess a piece of paper that says you are qualified to do the job.

In all honesty, though, I want to go back to school... I just can't afford to. Isn't that the age old battle? Alright rant over. Just needed somewhere to share my thoughts.

xo